It all dies one day.

what is the point when everything you love turns to dust. all I want is just to have someone there for me, someone to help me threw anything someone that loves me for who i am. trust really does take a long time to build up and it can all go with in a second. it's just no fair. As I've been growing up whenever I say, that's not fair my family would say "Lives not fair" I never realized how true they are.I mean ya'no not always getting your own way and having to work really hard for things people have been brought up with and will have for their live without donating a thing or helping a soul. I don't really have high aims or anything like that because well in my life, it doesn't EVER last. Lives to be living in the past but what if the past is the future? i mean if you can't get over the past then how can you face the future when you know what's going to happen. living in fear. urgh, everything goes so quick.. i even wrote a poem when I was going out with the 'love' of my life, if you knew me well you'll know that should be a real honour because I never ever ever write them -.- (..i am crap thou). "Yeah so I live my life day by day,
No one really caring about my say,
My life is kinda’ grey,
Living in a good way
Being myself, what’s in my DNA,
Whenever anyone bad popped up I ran away
I clean my mouth so I don’t get tooth decay
The entire normal boring things aye’?
Then one day I bumped in to this guy, I said hay.
I loved him from that second but I kept away
Because I’d get rejected like the Texas independent day.
I loved him even from alphanumeric display
I said to myself whatever he said I’d obey
Hoping one day I’d receive a beautiful bouquet.
Now I’ve got him and my life is complete.
I love you so much, my life’s pretty neat". aha, i ment every letter in every word of that 8 word sentence, "I love you". I don't joke with words like that. I'm still getting over him. -.- The words I say I mean and you can take my word, I NEVER CHANGE MY WORD. Well I'm off got mocks all week. yaay. Masking emotions is hard, eh. byeee.

Lozzy-G rap rap! this is hardcore bling blang rapping.

The names Lauren
I got my guinea pigs from blue berry warren
I’m not foreign
I got to school to learn
I like it when it’s my turn
I have brown hair
I have tender loving care
I’d hate to live in a lair
I the odd pear
I don’t like the word bare
Or the name Claire
I love to play truth or dare
I want to be the mayor
I have the key
So he can live with me
I can’t wait for him to be set free
No more misery
I love my phone
Which i’ll never lone
I tend to mone
My skin is light tone
I like the odd ice cream cone
As much as my dog likes to chew bones
My dog makes weird groans
I like the song, sticks and stones
I’m English and i like scones
In science I’m learning about the earth and clones
I hate it when my plans are postponed

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a bit of a rant. last yearrrrs.

Welcome to my life.

…Bright cloths, I can’t be used too much or I will lose my brightness. That’s how I see me, myself and I. Look in life you need the rain as well as the sun for a rainbow... to things... totally different need to sometimes work together.

Home… The place where I life, get fed, sleep and grew up. I like my home and most the people inside it. I am good at home; I love my mom and my dad. I am lazy at home because of this, when I tell my mom and dad I try my hardest they don’t believe me. I say it like I mean it, I do mean it, I do. My language, the words the way I say things is different when I am at home. I say please and thank you. I respect my family well most of them anyway.

I am nearly the same as I am at school, town as I am at school. But people see me different: People… they judge me, hurt me, hate me, tell lies about me, wonder why I am here, tell me to get a life, confuse me. I don’t have many people that like me, the ones that do are called my friends …I hope I never lose them. Lauren (my name) it’s a type of French bush. French. It’s not where I want to be but I can’t seem to move away. Bush! Bush, a bush… just seeing every one getting on in life, but everyone is ignoring me not helping me in the right way, I need help to get out of where I am at the moment but they look after me. Me instead I don’t need looking after. I can look after myself. School, I hate school no one seems to understand me they think I need help (…well not in that way). They treat me like a retarded depressed kid. I am a normal person don’t judge me. I do my work and get on with what we are meant to do.

I don’t aspire to be anyone else a “role model” if everyone had a role model then there would be any unique people in the world. They would all want to be some else. We all have our different styles… I know my life is not the best in fact it’s pretty bad, but we can’t just wait for it to get better and “put up with it” if your having trouble in life you need to do something about it. Even if you think all hope has gone. Why do bad things happen to good people? Why can’t we just have good karma in the world? It is this Injustice that changes the way I act and think.

I won't get in the van.

This is me. I'm sorry I've just scared your eyes but we all have negatives about our looks. i don't care what people think about me any more I am who I am, me, myself and I. I recently broke up with the guy I thought I'd love forever. Thing change, people don't. I know the real him now and frankly I don't want anything to do with him any more. [Deep insides he's just a baby]♪ Byyeee. (:♥